My Expectations as a sub/pet/slave

Is it appropriate for a sub to have expectations? I’d have to guess it is, because I do, but never really thought about it in a form of keys and definitions. I’ve always noticed when I’d get disappointed, so why did I never just voice that I was hoping for something that didn’t happen? So… If a Dom can list his expectations and rules… couldn’t I come up with a list of the same that I would hope would be regarded? And truly… it’s not expectations for you, but for myself, how I expect you to regard me. I know this can’t be a unique idea, but it sure is to me. Also I guess I’d say, that I mean no offense by this in any way to you, and perhaps it’s more of a reaffirmation to myself of what I want and expect.

Exchanging my submission for your collar, I give you one of biggest parts of me that make up the whole. I expect you to mold me, train me, to help me grow both mentally and physically into a better submissive. To grow closer in emotions to you, for you to hold expectations of me, and encourage my desire to reach those, not just for me, but for you.

I expect to submit to your will, to serve you for your pleasure, which is my pleasure. If I fail or resist, I expect you to reprimand or punish me in a way that you see fit to encourage better behavior I the future. I want you to punish me in such a way that I can learn and grow, and not repeat it. I do not want to be allowed to get away with bad behavior, because what I desire most is to learn to serve you with my whole heart and being, and your control is a way for me to feel it.

I want to be reminded that I belong to you, especially if I begin to loose focus. I also want to be able to tell you when I feel like I’m drifting and need to be pulled in and reminded. Sometimes this is a really big problem for me, and as I drift I begin to doubt, and as I doubt I begin to feel hurt. I need to feel anchored.

In the depths of my subbiness I want you to be able to know that my whimpers no’s are more often yeses. That my resistance doesn’t always mean I want to stop, but that I might want to be pushed past them. I expect you to learn the difference between my resistances caused by fear, to resistance caused by stubbornness. I want you to know that I may beg, cry, shudder or even defy you in your commands, but that I expect you not to stop, unless it’s your own choice, not because you feel sorry for me. Sometimes I may forget my safe word, or the knowledge that I have a way out, so I expect that my welfare is safe in your hands that if you feel I should be safewording, that you ask me.

I want you to crawl inside my head and heart. To explore and exploit my limits and desires, sexually, emotionally or mentally for your pleasure or upon your command to understand myself more, to be better able to serve your will.

I want you to cause me to flush, blush, whimper, cry, moan, purr, or any other sounds you may elicit from me, by pain, pleasure or humiliation. But I also want to be held and comforted, and assured that I am loved, safe and yours.

I expect you to know that I have given you my submission, and that I don’t have to remind you of that or reassure you of that. My word is my word; I will never take back my decision without discussing it. In that way, I feel I have a very deep loyalty, I will not just walk away, and I expect you to know that.

Finally…I trust that you will always question me when you want to understand something I have written, said or felt. I trust you to have my well being in mind even as you bend me and twist me to your own desires.

In loving submission… me. :)